"It is much easier to do something than to trust in God; we mistake panic for inspiration. That is why there are so few fellow-workers with God and so many workers for Him. We would far rather work for God than believe in Him. Am I quite sure that God will do what I cannot do?"

~ Oswald Chambers

This feels similar to the dilemma of praying and doing. "Don't just pray, do something." And at the same time, "Don't just do something, pray."

Working for God: I need to have faith to fully obey God and do what I need to do.

Working with God: I need to have faith God will do what he says he will do.

And I want both. Obedience to do what I need to do and faith that God will do his part. At times, I try to do "his part" with unsurprisingly bad outcome and I need to stop this.

Through daily process, I hope I get better and better.

See A process steadily maintained